I logged on MSN for the first time in months yesterday, and I was overwhelmed. I knew an AryaVarwin topic occasionally popped up on GZF or whatever, but there's just a very overpowering feeling when you get about 40+ messages within a matter of two minutes. I had to change my name to let people know that I was NOT coming back to GunZ, which is what people seemed to be curious of. People never forget.
Amongst interesting conversations was one I had with a GZF forum mod. I wanted him to confirm, or at least admit, what I knew all along, and had a deal of success in it. For one, this GZF mod admitted to me that there was NO real reason I was banned from GZF. There was a reason, but it was not for breaking any rules.
The unprofessionalism of GZF truly does astound me. Citizen tells his mods "I don't want this to seem like a job. I want everyone to just have fun with it." is a complete joke. Do you realize the criticism the police would take if their officers were told "JUST GET OUT THERE AND HAVE FUN GUYS"? Now I know that GZF mods are not cops, but in a sense, they are. As moderators, they are basically forum police. Their job is to enforce the rules. Simple as that.
mod·er·a·tor (mŏd'ə-rā'tər) Pronunciation Key n.
One that moderates, as:
One that arbitrates or mediates.
One who presides over a meeting, forum, or debate.
Now anyone in a mediation power, be it a judge, a cop, or something as simple as the overseer of an internet forum, there is one crime that is the worst. And that is favoritism. When you are mediating, or arbitrating, one should remain dead in the center, and favor the one in the right. If you side with one person for any other reason, you are showing favoritism, and you are no longer an overseer. You are a dictator.
This same GZF mod has admitted to me "Well it was either we ban you and piss off you + your supporters or ban the people flaming you and piss them off, so Citizen decided to ban you" Instead of trying to resolve issues in a professional and unbiased manner, they simply took the easy road and banned Arya.
Honestly, getting banned isn't the real reason. I can proxy or VPN a connection anytime, remake a different alias, and be back on GZF. If I wanted to be a real pain in the ass, I could simply write up a script for generating forum usernames and switching proxies with ease and have an "AryaVarwin2" etc. etc. thing going. Banned? Just hit a button, fill in a username/PW, and keep on going. The powerplay itself in banning AryaVarwin isn't why i'm against GZF.
It's the corruption. It's the fact that I think that only myself, one of the GZF mods who's loyal to me over Citizen, and a few others know truly how corrupt the site is. Others can see it, but only a few know the extent of things. Even MAIET is beginning to abandon GZF and the community, which does me a lot of good. Sure, we hate GZF, but the fact that a site with such bias and a staff that's no better then trained monkeys is sanctioned by MAIET and used practically as an official forum? That's what gets me.
In the end, the mod suggested that I take some time to reflect on myself, let go of the past, and forget about the whole thing. Simply make a new alias on GZF, start a new legacy, and go through with my plans without causing GZF any more strife.
But honestly, do you think they deserve to be let off the hook that easy?
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
Some Things Never Change
Looking back on GunZ itself, and looking to GunZ now as almost a complete outsider, it's confirmed what i've been saying all along: Things will never change. Never. Glancing over the topics of discussion at GZF, it's still the same thing. The same old worn out faces, and the same losers who try to make up for their lack of personality, real life, and skill at one of the most simplistic and relatively pointless games(GunZ) by degrading themselves to the point where they have so little class and respect for others and for themselves that their more glaring weaknesses can go under the radar.
To put it more simply, it's diversion. Scrub players like Toktok, Bunkai, Shunli, and Hiata are not what you may think. All of them have skill(Except Bunkai. I had so many screenshots/replays of me 14-1ing this kid I deleted them all) but they are overhyped to the point where the average player may think they're demi-Gods. Far from it. Instead, these players have taken their mediocre skill and fit themselves in with the masses. The same masses who had to combine the collective suck of so many little 14 year olds to waste their lives away trying to bring down a woman they didn't know over the internet. Good times.
GunZ is not evolving. It's not maturing like games should. This can be attributed to the games relatively simplistic concept from the start, the fact it has recieved NO real development since the day it was released in 2005(What? You actually thought Duel mode was within the past year? ROFL!) and it's community who continues to cripple it.
Personally, I think getting away from GzF has helped me more then it's hurt me. Despite the best efforts of the GzF mod staff to kill me, they've failed. What's done is done, and the GunZ community will never forget the name of AryaVarwin. Instead, what they've done is given me a sort of martyr status amongst more people then they'd like you to know. If anything, i'd rather be remembered as the person who stood up for what she thought was right, alone if necessary, and was not afraid to call things the way they were.
All you need to remember, is that name. AryaVarwin. Citizen's name, after he's collected on GZF and milked it for all it's worth, won't be remembered for anything. But names like Kraise and AryaVarwin... well, those names will never die.
P.S. Maybe the next article I post will be about how free and liberated I feel after leaving behind the BS of GunZ and it's community and playing WoW... but you already knew that.
To put it more simply, it's diversion. Scrub players like Toktok, Bunkai, Shunli, and Hiata are not what you may think. All of them have skill(Except Bunkai. I had so many screenshots/replays of me 14-1ing this kid I deleted them all) but they are overhyped to the point where the average player may think they're demi-Gods. Far from it. Instead, these players have taken their mediocre skill and fit themselves in with the masses. The same masses who had to combine the collective suck of so many little 14 year olds to waste their lives away trying to bring down a woman they didn't know over the internet. Good times.
GunZ is not evolving. It's not maturing like games should. This can be attributed to the games relatively simplistic concept from the start, the fact it has recieved NO real development since the day it was released in 2005(What? You actually thought Duel mode was within the past year? ROFL!) and it's community who continues to cripple it.
Personally, I think getting away from GzF has helped me more then it's hurt me. Despite the best efforts of the GzF mod staff to kill me, they've failed. What's done is done, and the GunZ community will never forget the name of AryaVarwin. Instead, what they've done is given me a sort of martyr status amongst more people then they'd like you to know. If anything, i'd rather be remembered as the person who stood up for what she thought was right, alone if necessary, and was not afraid to call things the way they were.
All you need to remember, is that name. AryaVarwin. Citizen's name, after he's collected on GZF and milked it for all it's worth, won't be remembered for anything. But names like Kraise and AryaVarwin... well, those names will never die.
P.S. Maybe the next article I post will be about how free and liberated I feel after leaving behind the BS of GunZ and it's community and playing WoW... but you already knew that.
Monday, March 19, 2007
Still Alive, Better Than Ever!
Figured i'd make a short(Well, short for my standards) post and let the people who still occasionally check this page: I'm NOT dead. I'm still alive, and i'm better than ever. Now that we've established that much, i'll throw out a few more things.
1) I made a 5minute checkup on GZF + IJJI GunZ, and nothing really shocked me. GZF is trying to further cash in on it's monopoly as the only GunZ site, and they're doing it now. The GunZ population, at this rate, can only get lower.
Even if they're beginning to add in some of the long withheld features to try to keep a playerbase, I don't think it's enough. When it boils right down to it, the game itself is relatively primitive, and the community will never grow up. These two things alone will kill the game, slowly but surely. For now, it's managing to stagnate the community.
I checked GZF, and after a few posts, I saw few, if any, new faces. Just the same old losers who can't let the game die. FFS.
2) Wow guys, you finally discovered Pacen. Snooze. He was my early prediction as a successor to one of the top spots in GunZ, and I finally see more and more people are beginning to recognize that. He was a highly underrated guy when I played with him, but his skill was there. And now I read GZF and people are like "OMG HE HITS LMOST ALL SHOTS LOL" He was doing exactly that long ago before you nerds discovered him. Maybe if you'd bother taking your head out of Curse's ass and looked around, you'd see that there's far superior players.
I've played a good deal with Pacen in the past, and we've 1v1'd on many occasions before I left. Each time it was close. I've never technically lost to the guy, but I have tied him on at least one occasion, and the times I did beat him were within a few rounds swing. So the guy is definitely top rate, and I highly doubt I could take him without at least a day or two of practice and getting back into it. And on that note..
3) I'm not coming back to GunZ now, nor anytime soon. No, I have not established a name. No, I will not be coming back anytime soon. World of Warcraft is such a fine game, I still find myself enjoying the game every time I log on.
For all you WoW players out there, i'm on an undead rogue. Level 70, Full HWL sets(Armor + Weapons) on a RPPvP server. Well, I will be finishing my HWL set within the next few days, but let's not be picky. :)
4) It seems i'm not the only one who's smart enough to realize Hate = Popularity.
www.worldofming.com
This person is the WoW equivilient of AryaVarwin. He's probably the most well known rogue in WoW at the moment, and if you read his site just for a bit, you'll see how opinionated his articles are.
Are they wrong? Sometimes. Sometimes not. But he's not afraid to tell things like he sees them, and most of the time, he's right. And because he doesn't give a damn for being politically correct, he's earned a lot of enemies.
I myself tried to get in touch with the guy, and I was impressed! He was a lot more cold then I am. Usually when I get approached by strangers, I will be at least courteous. Not him. When you message him, if he doesn't know you, he's not nice at all. Infact, he's a complete asshole.
I was a bit annoyed at first by this, then when I let him know just exactly what I thought of his attitude, he says the following:
Him: my fame comes from people like you
Him: hate = fame
Him: hate more please
You are now being ignored.
This would have enraged anyone else. But I was absolutely tickled! He's able to grasp something very simple. He's got the skill behind it, so his words are not just from any random guy. He's got the attitude. And people still don't understand why the guy is so famous, and considered by many to be the best.
The situation for AryaVarwin is similar. Make no mistake, after a time, I was forced to use my hatred to my advantage. It was the only way to keep it from consuming me, and it worked brilliantly.
By that same token, know that I was never out to become hated. I tried my hardest to be nice to everyone, and to be a loving, all around friendly person. But things didn't work out, and so I had to become a much different person. The haters wouldn't stop hating, so I figured, why not use them to my advantage?
That's right, Curse. That's right, GZF. That's right, all of you trolls. You managed to degrade me at first, but the tides turned, and I just used you all for my own benefit. Greedy, or devilishly clever? You decide.
Regardless, I think i've said too much, and figure i'd best be off to WoW. That's the best place, if you want to contact me or play, to meet me there. I'm a complete badass, and I don't mind helping anyone who mentions GunZ to me. Maybe someone will read between the lines from this post and take the hint. But I doubt it.
World of Warcraft (USA Servers)
Server: Emerald Dream(RPPVP)
Character: Varwina(High Warlord, Level 70, Undead Rogue)
Bye!
1) I made a 5minute checkup on GZF + IJJI GunZ, and nothing really shocked me. GZF is trying to further cash in on it's monopoly as the only GunZ site, and they're doing it now. The GunZ population, at this rate, can only get lower.
Even if they're beginning to add in some of the long withheld features to try to keep a playerbase, I don't think it's enough. When it boils right down to it, the game itself is relatively primitive, and the community will never grow up. These two things alone will kill the game, slowly but surely. For now, it's managing to stagnate the community.
I checked GZF, and after a few posts, I saw few, if any, new faces. Just the same old losers who can't let the game die. FFS.
2) Wow guys, you finally discovered Pacen. Snooze. He was my early prediction as a successor to one of the top spots in GunZ, and I finally see more and more people are beginning to recognize that. He was a highly underrated guy when I played with him, but his skill was there. And now I read GZF and people are like "OMG HE HITS LMOST ALL SHOTS LOL" He was doing exactly that long ago before you nerds discovered him. Maybe if you'd bother taking your head out of Curse's ass and looked around, you'd see that there's far superior players.
I've played a good deal with Pacen in the past, and we've 1v1'd on many occasions before I left. Each time it was close. I've never technically lost to the guy, but I have tied him on at least one occasion, and the times I did beat him were within a few rounds swing. So the guy is definitely top rate, and I highly doubt I could take him without at least a day or two of practice and getting back into it. And on that note..
3) I'm not coming back to GunZ now, nor anytime soon. No, I have not established a name. No, I will not be coming back anytime soon. World of Warcraft is such a fine game, I still find myself enjoying the game every time I log on.
For all you WoW players out there, i'm on an undead rogue. Level 70, Full HWL sets(Armor + Weapons) on a RPPvP server. Well, I will be finishing my HWL set within the next few days, but let's not be picky. :)
4) It seems i'm not the only one who's smart enough to realize Hate = Popularity.
www.worldofming.com
This person is the WoW equivilient of AryaVarwin. He's probably the most well known rogue in WoW at the moment, and if you read his site just for a bit, you'll see how opinionated his articles are.
Are they wrong? Sometimes. Sometimes not. But he's not afraid to tell things like he sees them, and most of the time, he's right. And because he doesn't give a damn for being politically correct, he's earned a lot of enemies.
I myself tried to get in touch with the guy, and I was impressed! He was a lot more cold then I am. Usually when I get approached by strangers, I will be at least courteous. Not him. When you message him, if he doesn't know you, he's not nice at all. Infact, he's a complete asshole.
I was a bit annoyed at first by this, then when I let him know just exactly what I thought of his attitude, he says the following:
Him: my fame comes from people like you
Him: hate = fame
Him: hate more please
You are now being ignored.
This would have enraged anyone else. But I was absolutely tickled! He's able to grasp something very simple. He's got the skill behind it, so his words are not just from any random guy. He's got the attitude. And people still don't understand why the guy is so famous, and considered by many to be the best.
The situation for AryaVarwin is similar. Make no mistake, after a time, I was forced to use my hatred to my advantage. It was the only way to keep it from consuming me, and it worked brilliantly.
By that same token, know that I was never out to become hated. I tried my hardest to be nice to everyone, and to be a loving, all around friendly person. But things didn't work out, and so I had to become a much different person. The haters wouldn't stop hating, so I figured, why not use them to my advantage?
That's right, Curse. That's right, GZF. That's right, all of you trolls. You managed to degrade me at first, but the tides turned, and I just used you all for my own benefit. Greedy, or devilishly clever? You decide.
Regardless, I think i've said too much, and figure i'd best be off to WoW. That's the best place, if you want to contact me or play, to meet me there. I'm a complete badass, and I don't mind helping anyone who mentions GunZ to me. Maybe someone will read between the lines from this post and take the hint. But I doubt it.
World of Warcraft (USA Servers)
Server: Emerald Dream(RPPVP)
Character: Varwina(High Warlord, Level 70, Undead Rogue)
Bye!
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