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Thursday, March 29, 2007

Self Reflection? Letting Go of the Past?

I logged on MSN for the first time in months yesterday, and I was overwhelmed. I knew an AryaVarwin topic occasionally popped up on GZF or whatever, but there's just a very overpowering feeling when you get about 40+ messages within a matter of two minutes. I had to change my name to let people know that I was NOT coming back to GunZ, which is what people seemed to be curious of. People never forget.

Amongst interesting conversations was one I had with a GZF forum mod. I wanted him to confirm, or at least admit, what I knew all along, and had a deal of success in it. For one, this GZF mod admitted to me that there was NO real reason I was banned from GZF. There was a reason, but it was not for breaking any rules.

The unprofessionalism of GZF truly does astound me. Citizen tells his mods "I don't want this to seem like a job. I want everyone to just have fun with it." is a complete joke. Do you realize the criticism the police would take if their officers were told "JUST GET OUT THERE AND HAVE FUN GUYS"? Now I know that GZF mods are not cops, but in a sense, they are. As moderators, they are basically forum police. Their job is to enforce the rules. Simple as that.

mod·er·a·tor (mŏd'ə-rā'tər) Pronunciation Key n.
One that moderates, as:
One that arbitrates or mediates.
One who presides over a meeting, forum, or debate.

Now anyone in a mediation power, be it a judge, a cop, or something as simple as the overseer of an internet forum, there is one crime that is the worst. And that is favoritism. When you are mediating, or arbitrating, one should remain dead in the center, and favor the one in the right. If you side with one person for any other reason, you are showing favoritism, and you are no longer an overseer. You are a dictator.

This same GZF mod has admitted to me "Well it was either we ban you and piss off you + your supporters or ban the people flaming you and piss them off, so Citizen decided to ban you" Instead of trying to resolve issues in a professional and unbiased manner, they simply took the easy road and banned Arya.

Honestly, getting banned isn't the real reason. I can proxy or VPN a connection anytime, remake a different alias, and be back on GZF. If I wanted to be a real pain in the ass, I could simply write up a script for generating forum usernames and switching proxies with ease and have an "AryaVarwin2" etc. etc. thing going. Banned? Just hit a button, fill in a username/PW, and keep on going. The powerplay itself in banning AryaVarwin isn't why i'm against GZF.

It's the corruption. It's the fact that I think that only myself, one of the GZF mods who's loyal to me over Citizen, and a few others know truly how corrupt the site is. Others can see it, but only a few know the extent of things. Even MAIET is beginning to abandon GZF and the community, which does me a lot of good. Sure, we hate GZF, but the fact that a site with such bias and a staff that's no better then trained monkeys is sanctioned by MAIET and used practically as an official forum? That's what gets me.

In the end, the mod suggested that I take some time to reflect on myself, let go of the past, and forget about the whole thing. Simply make a new alias on GZF, start a new legacy, and go through with my plans without causing GZF any more strife.

But honestly, do you think they deserve to be let off the hook that easy?

Monday, March 26, 2007

Some Things Never Change

Looking back on GunZ itself, and looking to GunZ now as almost a complete outsider, it's confirmed what i've been saying all along: Things will never change. Never. Glancing over the topics of discussion at GZF, it's still the same thing. The same old worn out faces, and the same losers who try to make up for their lack of personality, real life, and skill at one of the most simplistic and relatively pointless games(GunZ) by degrading themselves to the point where they have so little class and respect for others and for themselves that their more glaring weaknesses can go under the radar.

To put it more simply, it's diversion. Scrub players like Toktok, Bunkai, Shunli, and Hiata are not what you may think. All of them have skill(Except Bunkai. I had so many screenshots/replays of me 14-1ing this kid I deleted them all) but they are overhyped to the point where the average player may think they're demi-Gods. Far from it. Instead, these players have taken their mediocre skill and fit themselves in with the masses. The same masses who had to combine the collective suck of so many little 14 year olds to waste their lives away trying to bring down a woman they didn't know over the internet. Good times.

GunZ is not evolving. It's not maturing like games should. This can be attributed to the games relatively simplistic concept from the start, the fact it has recieved NO real development since the day it was released in 2005(What? You actually thought Duel mode was within the past year? ROFL!) and it's community who continues to cripple it.

Personally, I think getting away from GzF has helped me more then it's hurt me. Despite the best efforts of the GzF mod staff to kill me, they've failed. What's done is done, and the GunZ community will never forget the name of AryaVarwin. Instead, what they've done is given me a sort of martyr status amongst more people then they'd like you to know. If anything, i'd rather be remembered as the person who stood up for what she thought was right, alone if necessary, and was not afraid to call things the way they were.

All you need to remember, is that name. AryaVarwin. Citizen's name, after he's collected on GZF and milked it for all it's worth, won't be remembered for anything. But names like Kraise and AryaVarwin... well, those names will never die.

P.S. Maybe the next article I post will be about how free and liberated I feel after leaving behind the BS of GunZ and it's community and playing WoW... but you already knew that.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Still Alive, Better Than Ever!

Figured i'd make a short(Well, short for my standards) post and let the people who still occasionally check this page: I'm NOT dead. I'm still alive, and i'm better than ever. Now that we've established that much, i'll throw out a few more things.

1) I made a 5minute checkup on GZF + IJJI GunZ, and nothing really shocked me. GZF is trying to further cash in on it's monopoly as the only GunZ site, and they're doing it now. The GunZ population, at this rate, can only get lower.

Even if they're beginning to add in some of the long withheld features to try to keep a playerbase, I don't think it's enough. When it boils right down to it, the game itself is relatively primitive, and the community will never grow up. These two things alone will kill the game, slowly but surely. For now, it's managing to stagnate the community.

I checked GZF, and after a few posts, I saw few, if any, new faces. Just the same old losers who can't let the game die. FFS.

2) Wow guys, you finally discovered Pacen. Snooze. He was my early prediction as a successor to one of the top spots in GunZ, and I finally see more and more people are beginning to recognize that. He was a highly underrated guy when I played with him, but his skill was there. And now I read GZF and people are like "OMG HE HITS LMOST ALL SHOTS LOL" He was doing exactly that long ago before you nerds discovered him. Maybe if you'd bother taking your head out of Curse's ass and looked around, you'd see that there's far superior players.

I've played a good deal with Pacen in the past, and we've 1v1'd on many occasions before I left. Each time it was close. I've never technically lost to the guy, but I have tied him on at least one occasion, and the times I did beat him were within a few rounds swing. So the guy is definitely top rate, and I highly doubt I could take him without at least a day or two of practice and getting back into it. And on that note..

3) I'm not coming back to GunZ now, nor anytime soon. No, I have not established a name. No, I will not be coming back anytime soon. World of Warcraft is such a fine game, I still find myself enjoying the game every time I log on.

For all you WoW players out there, i'm on an undead rogue. Level 70, Full HWL sets(Armor + Weapons) on a RPPvP server. Well, I will be finishing my HWL set within the next few days, but let's not be picky. :)

4) It seems i'm not the only one who's smart enough to realize Hate = Popularity.

www.worldofming.com

This person is the WoW equivilient of AryaVarwin. He's probably the most well known rogue in WoW at the moment, and if you read his site just for a bit, you'll see how opinionated his articles are.

Are they wrong? Sometimes. Sometimes not. But he's not afraid to tell things like he sees them, and most of the time, he's right. And because he doesn't give a damn for being politically correct, he's earned a lot of enemies.

I myself tried to get in touch with the guy, and I was impressed! He was a lot more cold then I am. Usually when I get approached by strangers, I will be at least courteous. Not him. When you message him, if he doesn't know you, he's not nice at all. Infact, he's a complete asshole.

I was a bit annoyed at first by this, then when I let him know just exactly what I thought of his attitude, he says the following:

Him: my fame comes from people like you
Him: hate = fame
Him: hate more please
You are now being ignored.

This would have enraged anyone else. But I was absolutely tickled! He's able to grasp something very simple. He's got the skill behind it, so his words are not just from any random guy. He's got the attitude. And people still don't understand why the guy is so famous, and considered by many to be the best.

The situation for AryaVarwin is similar. Make no mistake, after a time, I was forced to use my hatred to my advantage. It was the only way to keep it from consuming me, and it worked brilliantly.

By that same token, know that I was never out to become hated. I tried my hardest to be nice to everyone, and to be a loving, all around friendly person. But things didn't work out, and so I had to become a much different person. The haters wouldn't stop hating, so I figured, why not use them to my advantage?

That's right, Curse. That's right, GZF. That's right, all of you trolls. You managed to degrade me at first, but the tides turned, and I just used you all for my own benefit. Greedy, or devilishly clever? You decide.

Regardless, I think i've said too much, and figure i'd best be off to WoW. That's the best place, if you want to contact me or play, to meet me there. I'm a complete badass, and I don't mind helping anyone who mentions GunZ to me. Maybe someone will read between the lines from this post and take the hint. But I doubt it.

World of Warcraft (USA Servers)
Server: Emerald Dream(RPPVP)
Character: Varwina(High Warlord, Level 70, Undead Rogue)

Bye!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

R.I.P. AryaVarwin

AryaVarwin as you know her is dead right now.

I gave away access to all my IJJI GunZ accounts, and my GZF account can rot for all I care. I'm done worrying about the game, and i'm done with this fight. It's pointless to go on anymore, rather, it's not worth the effort required to make a difference.

To all those who supported/support me now, I give you guys my utmost respect and appreciation. You guys helped me play as long as I did, and gave me the purpose of playing. Because no matter how many haters came along, I always knew that there were more of you who supported me, and knowing that, it was all okay. :)

If you take anything away from my legacy, let it be this: No matter what the odds are, do NOT back away from your enemy. Even if the whole forums and world itself seems to turn against you, do not give in to it. I stood against every enemy, alone if I had to, and I never looked back. It's why I became so known, and it's why they hated me so much: I just did NOT die.

And don't worry. AryaVarwin WILL be back. Just... not in the way you know her. And not for a while.

I will not play GunZ for a time. I WILL come back. I promise you. When I do, it will be under a name no one ever knows, and i'm going to reestablish my name. And when I do, i'm going to prove this point: The people who flame and hate AryaVarwin, will hate ANYONE who is better then them. I won't say a WORD, I will just silently kill people, and I guarantee you that the same no-life pathetic bastards will still flock to insult me. Why? They insult ANYONE who isn't a part of that cult who possesses skill. End of story.

Before this year is over, you will see the return of AryaVarwin. Before 2008 comes, I will reveal my new identity, whatever it is, to the public. And I will see exactly the reaction. After all, it's not the anti-Arya bandwagon that's unreasonable and mean, it's me, right? We'll see.

But as for the name AryaVarwin... I will never take it on again. Even if I reveal who I am.

I will still make posts here when there is something worth reading, maybe a bit more often when I have my alternate alias created and can comment on the latest happenings. Until then, I might throw out some timeless old memories, strategies... ah I dunno. Whatever comes up. So stay tuned!

Also, I want it to be known that the GZF Mod Staff seemed to finally realize just how wrong they were in opposing me, and recently I got a message from MSN by a GZF Mod, AKAlias. He apologized to me, on the behalf of the GZF mod team, for the actions, and for going the easy route by making me take the fall instead of those others who were truly creating the problems.

As for Citizen, i'm still going to wait until I get a REAL reason why I was banned and not some made up BS, or an apology. I know damn well when i'm wrong, and after the fact if that's the case, i'm not afraid to admit it. If I am truly wrong. But when i'm right, I will NEVER bow down and NEVER back away from it. And I know for a fact i'm in the right, and so does Citizen.

Keep up the prideful image, Citizen. Because you are losing far more then I ever did and ever will.

As for everyone else, take care. I'll still be on MSN if you need me.

Friday, February 9, 2007

GunZ... Dying to Me

This game is dying to me.

The more and more I taste the fruit of life outside of the game, playing WoW, and rarely another game(which I won't mention, but it's 10x more fun then GunZ to me) the more I lose any care for this game.

I know it's going to piss off a lot of the base of you who are hardcore dedicated to GunZ, and believe me, I was there once too. It's a unique game, and it offers some pretty unique stuff. K-Style itself is a good system which i'd say should be replicated, to an extent, in other fast paced action games.

Honestly, if this game was more developed, had a larger playerbase, and had a better COMMUNITY, it would be a much better game, and could probably go retail. The game as it is now may attract some casual players and a few hardcore players who are dedicated to it's niche gameplay, but then again, every shitty game has it's hardcore base. Some people still play crappy games like DAoC(Far more then who play GunZ) which is... sad.

I may never return to GunZ. I know I know, many have said the same and not come back... even I have said it before, and in the end, came back for another whirl. But now, it feels different. I don't even have a desire to play in the least, I haven't even pulled up the GZF website in weeks, and I haven't looked back.

I've been fighting this battle of GunZ for so long, and it's honestly drained me to the point where I don't care. Before, I was able to hold some people back from ruining GunZ with hackers... remember those weeks when IJJI was first out when it was hacker free? I was playing then. And when I quit, the hackers swarmed. I did not want to see the GunZ I knew ruined. I stopped preserving it, and I won't preserve it anymore. Let it burn for all I care.

If anything, I will encourage you guys to get away from this game. Try something else, and find something fun and enjoyable. Get involved with the community there, and I guarantee it will be like a breath of fresh air compared to GunZ.

To me, I am looking upon GunZ and it's community like a pit of rancid infestation. And rather then go in there and fight amongst the corrupted to cure it, just avoid it and let them rot away.

When I think about it, I know.. Sure, I could take a stand. I could fight to the very end, and probably make a difference, even if it's only a little. But is it worth the effort required, for such an impact? I don't think so anymore.

I won't say GunZ is completely dead to me. Not yet. But at the rate things are going, it won't take long before it gets there. I'll see how things progress, and let you guys know.

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

WoW vs. GunZ

Is WoW really better then GunZ? Let's look at things objectively and find out!

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Playerbase -

WoW: 8million+ paying subscribers worldwide, and growing.
vs.
GunZ: Roughly 20,000-30,000 players worldwide, maybe 10,000 who've paid

Character Creation -

WoW: 10 Different Playable Races, 9 Different Classes, 20+ Ways to customize each races/genders hair, haircolor, skin color, features, etc.
vs.
GunZ: Choose either male or female, and choose one of four hairstyles, and one of four faces.

Character Customization -

WoW: 100's and 100's of unique weapons and armors for each level and class, each possessing it's own unique look. Variety of different builds/specializations for each class which can be changed to fit the role you want, over 8 professions to choose from.
vs.
GunZ: Currently less then 10 armor sets to customize your appearance. If you aren't wearing one of two armor sets, you're character is gimped. Two weapons to choose from(SG or Rev), if you aren't using one of those, your character is gimped.

World -

WoW: Explore three different continents, each with multitudes of vast cities, landscapes, zones, monsters, NPCs, dungeons. Constantly changing landscape so you aren't stuck with the same old places all day. A world so big you could spend 8+ hours on a single continent exploring and you couldn't even see half of what there is to experience.
vs.
GunZ: 10-15 Maps, with 80% of the maps being places nobody even plays. Each map is generic and bland, and takes less then 5 minutes on each to see all there is to see.

Community -

WoW: 50% Jackasses, 50% Non-Jackasses.
vs.
GunZ: 95% Jackasses, 5% Non-Jackasses.

WoW: Easy to find people to have fun with. Many higher levels are gladly willing to help you out, and experienced players will usually not have a problem with helping you out. Forums are generally very helpful and free of rampant flaming, and it's not hard to find answers to a problem or advice.
vs.
GunZ: Rampant hackers, swappers, and worst of all, Europeans. New players seeking help are generally flamed and critisized, community in general is very elitist and isolates those not a member/supporter of a certain fad or clan. Non-pros are looked upon with much hatred, and everyone in the pro sector hates each other. Forum moderators are biased and retarded, and the community makes it completely impossible to have any sort of reasonable discussion without chants of "OMG SERIOUS BUSINESS"

Age -

WoW: Most players are 18-21, with some being younger and some being older at about an equal ratio.
vs.
GunZ: Most players are 14, give or take a year or so. A very small handful are older, and an uncomfortable mass are younger.

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I can't go on any longer, this is too painful.